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Thursday, January 26th, 2006
2:28 pm - Amazing Dessert
I got this recipe from my mom. It's the best dessert I've ever had in my life...and it's easy to make.

4 Layer Dessert

1 1/2 cup flour
1 1/2 stick margarine
1 cup chopped pecans
1 8oz. box cream cheese
1 cup powdered sugar
1 large cool whip
3 small boxes of instant pudding
5 cups milk

1st Layer
Mix flour, margarine and pecans together. It'll be crumbly.
Spread in 9X13 inch pan.
Bake at 300 for 15 minutes.
Let it cool completely before adding the next layer. Hint: Put it in the freezer for it to cool quicker.

2nd Layer
Mix cream cheese, powdered sugar, 1 cup of cool whip.
Spread on crust.

3rd Layer
Mix pudding and milk.
Spread on layer.
Note: The boxes of pudding ask for 2 cups per box, which would all add up to 6 cups. But only put 5 cups so it'll be thicker.

4th Layer
Cool Whip

Sometimes I like to double the 2nd layer because that's my favorite part of the dessert.

Well, that's it. Try it and let me know what you think. Sooooooooooooooo Goooooooooooooooooood!!!!!

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Friday, December 30th, 2005
5:56 am

You fit in with:

Your ideals mostly resemble those of an Atheist. You have very little faith and you are very focused on intellectual endeavors. You value objective proof over intuition or subjective thoughts. You enjoy talking about ideas and tend to have a lot of in depth conversations with people.

60% scientific.
60% reason-oriented.

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Friday, December 23rd, 2005
7:14 pm
blah, xmas shopping sucked today. but my friend's mom bought me a new outfit which was pretty cool.

i hope everyone has a very lovely xmas. <3

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Wednesday, December 21st, 2005
8:22 pm - question for everyone
i'm no longer taking ambien to sleep (b/c i don't need it) and klonopin for my anxiety. but i bought this book about overcoming anxiety and it has some herbal alternatives to prescription medications. 2 of them are pretty appealing and i was wondering if anyone has taken them for anxiety and such. they're called "Kava Kava" and "Valerian". I am still taking my depression and bipolar medications. and if you know of any others, let me know. i'd much rather take this kind of stuff than addicting prescription pills.

yeah, i was getting addicted to those damn klonopin pills, so i flushed a whole bottle of that shit down the toilet and called my doctor to prescribe me something else. he then prescribed some other shit that doesn't even work at all. so i've given up on that, which is hard because my anxiety is still pretty awful. :-(

so any info about the herbal stuff let me know. thanks.

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Thursday, December 15th, 2005
8:03 am
3-4 days in jail resorted to only an overnight stay. now i can put all that legal shit from my past behind me that's been weighing on my shoulders for like 2 years. i don't think it's really hit me yet.

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Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005
8:52 am
well...got to court yesterday morning at 8am. my lawyer finally shows up at 10am, goes in, and comes back out saying that he'll have to reschedule my court date since the probation person wasn't there. shit. waiting all that time for just a reschedule. that means my mom's gotta drive back down in 2 weeks. i hate that. poor mom.

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Friday, November 18th, 2005
8:25 am
You entered: Kimberly Webster
There are 15 letters in your name.
Those 15 letters total to 70
There are 4 vowels and 11 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 7

The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious, meditating.

The expression or destiny for #7:
Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7. The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.

If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.

Your Soul Urge number is: 6

A Soul Urge number of 6 means:
With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.

The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.

If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.

Your Inner Dream number is: 1

An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.

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Thursday, November 17th, 2005
11:22 pm
so i go to the bonding place thinking that my travis county warrant is going to show up in houston also, along with my harris county warrant. so after about 4 hours of waiting, they finally take me back to get my picture and fingerprints, then about 10 minutes later they just give me a paper saying when my court date is for my harris county one. thankfully, the travis warrant didn't even show up or i'd be in jail from 12 to 24 hours. all i need to do now is go to austin to get that warrant taken care of.

so no more warrant in harris county and i'm so happy about that. that's been a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.

i'm sleepy so i go sleep now. night night.

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Thursday, October 6th, 2005
5:15 pm
i went to the doctor this morning and got a starter kit of zoloft. my anxiety and depression is taking a huge toll on my life at the moment, and i hate it more than anything.

yeah, amanda and i are on a little break. we decided to spend time hanging out with our own friends and stuff. we were just spending way too much time together. i may even move out once i find an apartment. just a little 6 month lease...then we'll probably move back in together.

my computer at my apartment doesn't work. that sucks.

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Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
8:22 am - fuck this
no coffee this morning at work. the coffee pot burned out because of power outages. this sucks. i can't wake up!!!!!!!!

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Monday, September 26th, 2005
8:23 am
amanda, stanley and i went to my sister's in waller county from friday morning til saturday. what should have taken us an hour took us 4 hours going 2920. not too bad. we could have went to my brother's, but stan would have had to stay in the garage and we just weren't gonna have that. so yeah. we're all safe and had power the whole time at my sister's.

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Friday, September 16th, 2005
4:48 pm
Work is almost over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm SO ready for the weekend. Busy busy busy this whole week.

And Amanda and I are both off the entire weekend, which rarely happens. We'll probably take Stan for a really long walk tonight. Sounds like a great plan for a Friday night. :-) It beats going to my sister-in-law's passion party (aka snobby Woodlands girls getting shit-faced and laughing at dildos and vibrators, which is annoying as hell).

So yeah. Bring on the weekend!

current mood: stressed

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Friday, September 9th, 2005
11:56 am
my boss is buying everyone lunch today.

kung pao tofu = good stuff.

current mood: giggly

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Thursday, September 8th, 2005
5:00 pm
last weekend amanda and i drove to louisiana (northern) to visit my mom. it was awesome. so much fun. bought tons of clothes because of all the sales they were having at the mall. good stuff.

all of my pants are really tight on me now. i seriously need to start doing crunches or something. i can't afford to buy all new pants and skirts.

mr. stanley is the best dog ever.

i'm at work so i leave now. more later.

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Saturday, August 27th, 2005
7:57 am - i got a PHAT check yesterday!
13.92 hours overtime at $15/hour. That's on top of my regular pay of $10/hour for 40 hours. I love it.

The receptionist asked me if I wanted to work for her today, but I said no because I'm WAY too tired. Plus, Amanda has to work from 8am-1pm today, so that would mean her dropping me off at like 7:30 and me sitting outside til someone got there. No way.
Since my work is closed next Saturday and that's my weekend to work, I get paid for that 4 hours. And Monday we're off too and we still get paid. Sweetness.

This weekend's agenda:
1. Lots of grocery shopping.

2. Go to the mall so I can pick out a skirt and find something badass for my mom.

3. Clean apartment.

4. Go to the movies with my brother.

5. Give Stan a bath.

I tried my hardest to sleep in this morning...but no. I woke up at 6:45am and thought I was running late. haha I hate when that happens.

Next weekend we're definitely driving to Monroe to see my mommy. We'll probably leave Saturday and come back Monday.

Anyone know of any sales going on anywhere for clothes?

current mood: drained

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Sunday, August 21st, 2005
9:13 am
i never thought i'd say this...but i need to start doing crunches every night or something. i'm gaining weight like crazy, which is awesome, but my belly pokes out a little. haha

and i can't sleep in on the weekends. it sucks. this morning i woke up at like 7:30 and couldn't fall back asleep, so i just got up and made my coffee. today is a cleaning day anyway, so maybe it's a good thing.

last night amanda and i officially labeled ourselves an old married couple already. we wanted to get out of the house for a little, but couldn't find anyone to really hang out with. our friend garrett was going to someone's house to drink, and i didn't really wanna be around that. jackie and brandy weren't really doing anything, but we're probably going over there later today for jackie's birthday party thing. so we just ended up renting a couple of movies and passing out at like 10:30pm. that's pathetic, but i actually enjoyed it. :-)

current mood: okay

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Thursday, August 11th, 2005
7:03 am
work as been awesome. really, wearing jeans and flip-flops to work is the best...and having my own office. i love it. i still haven't learned all of what i'll be doing, but my boss is teaching me a little at a time. i get paid tomorrow, and my check is gonna be awesome. about 9 hours of overtime, so that adds like $160 on to my check.

it's definitely haircut time again. i haven't gotten it cut in like 6 months. so i'll probably set an appointment for saturday or sunday.

last weekend we went to kohl's and the mall to get some cool sale/tax-free stuff. i got like 2 pairs of jeans, some nice pants, a few shirts, and a pair of nice shoes. i love it. i haven't bought clothes in soooo looong.

we took stanley to his first vet visit just to get him checked out. he's all good, which is a relief. and the vet said his skin condition could just be allergies. so he told us to give him like 2 benadryl a day. not sure if it's working yet.

current mood: energetic

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Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
5:54 pm - super duper excited
I've been working as a Receptionist at my job for about a week and a half and I'm already promoted to the Accounts Receivables Clerk position. My boss was like, "Scott isn't doing a very good job, and we need someone like you who's a hard worker and organized. Are you interested?" I'm like, "Hell yeah!" I've been going to her and asking her for stuff to do instead of just sitting there. I'd rather be working and shit. So her and the owner were really impressed with that. And I have experience with Accounts Payable, which is just the opposite of AR. I'll be getting $1 raise for 2 or 3 months. Then it'll be bumped up to $1 more. ALSO, I get my own fucking office! How amazing is that???

The new Receptionist starts Monday, so I'll be training her for like a week, then I start my new job. I'm so excited!!!!!!

Oh yeah, and this also means that I can wear jeans everyday. I'm not able to as a Receptionist because I'm out in the showroom and stuff. <3

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Monday, August 1st, 2005
5:50 pm
this month was pretty awesome and pretty depressing at the same time.

good things:
1. moving into our own apartment.
2. mr. stanley moving in with us.
3. me getting an awesome job.

bad things:
amanda being depressed about:
1. her best moving out of the country to live with her husband who's in the military, and
2. quitting her job that she's had for 4 years.

both of those things happened within a week. she's been depressed, which in turn makes me depressed. i hate her being sad.

i got my benefits package in the mail yesterday. AMAZING benefits at my job. i'll be getting HMO, Vision, and Dental...with nothing coming out of my paycheck. i'm so excited. all that start in 2 months.

now i can get medication for my anxiety and shit. it's very much needed lately.

when i got home today i found that amanda had bought stan his doggie toothbrush and toothpaste. so fresh and so clean clean. he has an appointment with the vet this coming thursday at 5:30pm, which is awesome because i'll be able to go. the first exam is free because we adopted him. we just wanna get him checked for mainly his skin condition. he's been scratching but he doesn't have fleas. the shelter said he had some kind of condition...they just didn't know what it was or how to treat it. also they said he's heartworm negative, but we're gonna double check it.

work is pretty coolio. i worked saturday for 4 hours. it was alright. overtime is pretty awesome. yesterday i spent a total of 6 hours cleaning our apartment. it's spotless. seriously.

also, amanda and i got the blockbuster movie pass. $25/month for unlimited rental. we've been watching movies like crazy lately.

AND as we were taking stan on a little walk through some trails out here in the woodlands, we found a little skate spot. had a couple rails and stuff. as soon as i buy my new board, i'm DEFINITELY hitting that shit up.

i <3 stanley.

current mood: productive

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Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
5:35 pm - so yeah
work is alright. i found out that i really don't have shit to do all day except answer phones. everyone there made it out to be like a lot of work and shit. i can get all my work done in the morning before lunch. then in the afternoon i have nothing else. so i'm going to talk to the company manager and ask him for more work load. i can't stand just sitting there all afternoon. sooooooo boring. i'll probably ask to do some accounts receivable or payables since i have experience with it all. one of my coworkers said they'll probably promote me soon if i can handle all of that. so awesome. i work this saturday, which is 4 hours overtime. i love overtime. time and a half, so it's like $13/hour.

i miss stanley so much when i'm at work. i practically run to my door when i get off work.

amanda and i are planning a trip to louisiana to visit my mom next month. this makes me extremely happy...i haven't visited her there in a while.

current mood: good

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